Quote: I just said it wasn't making me angry. I am truly weary of this situation. Though I guess in a way it isn't "getting to me"
Good for holding on.
Quote: because at this point I am finally about 100% certain that there is nothing more I can do to improve the situation by improving myself.
You could be almost perfect and maybe your H would still not be interested in sex. Then again he might see his way through to satisfy you some.
Quote: if he doesn't initiate sex this weekend, I swear I'll be filling out papers this week.
Sorry you are hurting and feel this way. If a guy posted this, he would be swarmed with comments like "selfish" "pig" and and a host of male bashing comments.
I know you have been trying many things to get your H to ML to you and you might feel the payback to you is poor. Sorry, but that is the way it works sometimes. Your H being "Mr Picky" seems to be the bigger problem more than the lack of sex, the way I see it. Maybe it's time to pack sandwiches with stale bread and give those speciality bread sandwiches to the customers at your book sales or buying trips.
I quit serving meals in the livingroom. I think it worked for me. What about you? Sometimes a person has to withdraw favors to be noticed.
I have a similar situation here. It's mostly my responsibility to define the problems, its my responsibility to come up with solutions, and BB wants to be the one to say yes or no to the solutions. Maybe her wheels are turning, but I don't see much evidence they are.
I am not complaining, just point out to you what I see happening here and am rightly or wrongly applying them to your situation. I suppose many other people "feel" the same way. Feelings are not always reality.
I hope you will feel better soon. In a couple of days I hope you see things in a more positive light. Till then best wishes.