My PMA took a dive today, and I'm puzzled over what set it off!
Shoot. Can't quite put a finger on it.
My mom had called yesterday and she was cool towards me. She seemed nervous and wanted to get off the phone quick, usually means she's mad at me over something! and I have no clue what it is!
I used up a lot of emotions yesterday by first waiting for ex to call and then divulging secrets.
I realized how close it is to my bday!
And I also noticed the calendar is ticking away on when to make a choice on ex. I was planning on waiting 6 month after div for him to show some signs of life. (he doesn't know this, no pressure!) At six months, I just planned to make up my mind to keep trying or move on. I have a few positive signs, but wondering if it's enough.
And, then, I keep thinking that if I did lose all hope on us, I could vent all my frustrations out on him. (and for some reason, I REALLY want to do this today!)
Oh, well. It's probably raging hormone levels and PMS.
