Thx for the ideas! I think I will use the calendar one but wait till later. s seems to like using my camera (usually pics of his nose or eye, and three shots of the keyboard once!) so maybe when we go camping I'll put some shots together in a collage to send to dad. For dad's day, I'm going to stick w/card and school work this year. I've done the store bought gift from s so much he will probably see it as pursuit even if I don't mean it.

I am pondering another issue today and just getting myself upset, I think. I don't know if I have mentioned here that ex still has my truck and some possessions. Actually the truck belongs to oldest s17, (inhereted from his dad) and I wasn't going to let him drive through Chi-town w/it. Now I am stuck on getting it here w/o asking ex to drive it(he won't take the bus or train back). And I know that h is using it for his primary vehicle right now which is irratating me. I just don't understand why he wants to keep this stuff from us.

Actually, the reason I am pondering this is our soc sec cards are in my stuff back there and s signed his recruitment papers today and asked for it. We will probably go down to ss tomorrow and apply for replacement cards. But then it hit me: in one year, I will only have one kid left at home. So I figure it's time for me to have a MLC, ok all?

And it is almost the weekend again. I have made plans this week and am not going to wait around for his weekly phone call. So does that mean I am still in the gray or did I just go back to the dark?