Thanks for your response re: the sex issue. I hope it is not me but he makes me feel as if it is. (apparently he had no problem with OW. She is ugly but thin) He says he needs me to be thin as sex is very visual for him. I dont think I will ever be thin, healthy is the best I can hope for. I have always been chubby even when we first got together and the combination of having two children and a very underactive thyroid have done me in. I take my medication every day, go to the gym everyday and watch what I eat but all I have really been able to do it stop the gaining.
You have mentioned in earlier posts that you too have a thyroid problem. Do you know of anything else I can do? I have taken every diet pill known to man, read every book out there and have tried every diet program there is. My doctor is just not a very informational kind of guy who tells me I can fix everything if I just "Run". My Gyno says that is fine if I want all my insides to come out she says walking, biking eliptical are all fine. (I am 45 and have had loose bladder and uterine issues)
Thanks for your time Ellie. I appreciate it. If you have any suggestions I would appreciate hearing them. My thread is over on MLC under Debra. I am journaling there to try and see if that will help me decide what direction I want my life to go in since nothing else is helping.
