Stop excusing him. You take your part in the responsibility but let him take his also stop saying that you are to blame and that is what it appears you are saying.
You did not put his hands around your throat he did. You did not lock yourself in a laundry room he did.
You may have been being verbally abusive on some levels. But he was being physically abusive and mentally abusive.
You state you have so much hate in you for him. I relate. But let me ask you something that I have been asking myself these last three days.
Why are you staying really why. List them and try to figure out if they are good reasons to stay. You have a issue that alot of people here do not you are in harms way. Real physical harm. Not just mental or verbal abuse physical abuse.. That changes alot of things. This was pointed out to me by others here on this website. If you need there words please visit my thread under the sex starved marriage BB it is Chrissys thread.
Yes you may have issues of not handling your emotional outburst But that does not excuse physical threat of injury by your H. You really need to realize that before you justify much more of his behavior. Is there any family members aware of your sitch that way if things get bad and say they dont hear from you for a day or so they know they might want to come looking.
