~Update~ Last night when I got home H and the kids were not there, which did not surprise me. I called and his cell phone was turned off. I waited a half hour and called again and he answered with "what". I asked "where are you guys?" he said "we had to get out of there so you could nap or something to make up for all that extra sleep you lost" I said "H, knock it off, where are you, Greenbrier?" he said "yes, but I don't know how long we'll be here". Greenbrier is quite a hike from our home, so basically he was telling me don't bother driving all the way here, b/c we'll probably be gone by the time you get here. But, they didn't get home until after 8pm. This morning, I was rounding up the kids to go to school and H said "I'm taking them." I said "H, I've taken them every day for the last four years, I'll take them", he said "not anymore". He then said "ok then guys do you want to ride with mommy or daddy?" He always knows he'll win with that. I don't understand why, but they always say daddy. So I kissed them and walked out the door, getting to work an hour earlier than usual. And here I sit. As usual, I started the issue. Monday night I could have just kept my mouth shut and tossed turned until morning came and dutifully got up as usual and got the kids ready myself and took them to school. From my persepective, if you're gonna keep me up all damn night then YOU can get up in the morning and take the kids to daycare and see how it feels. But oh no, Heather can't be given an ounce of control in this M, she's not goint to tell ME what to do. I'll show her, she will not take those kids to daycare ever again. That will be her punishment for thinking she can have anything to say about what goes on around here. Am I being melodramatic? Did I have this coming for picking this battle? So, now he is dropping off at daycare and picking up because he gets out of work earlier than me. I won't get to see the teachers at all to find out about what's going on and how they've been doing and he surely won't keep me informed. I feel so helpless, so pathetic. S4 is back to where we were a couple months ago where he won't answer my questions or listen to my authority. I am desperate for advice. A few months ago, I filed for D, and I'm thinking I'd like to change that line of thought and instead just file for custody so that I can move out. I don't want to make it so H can't see the kids of course, I couldn't legally do that anyway b/c he hasn't done anything wrong, but I want primary custody or he will just continue the manipulation forevermore. If I don't have the legal authority to make decisions, H will just continue right on with his ways. Does anyone have any advice for me on what to do? I would appreciate any input!!
"Happiness is a butterfly, which, when pursued, is always just beyond your grasp, but which, if you will sit down quietly, may alight upon you."
