So, here I am, back at the same state of mind I was in months ago. That I should leave my H. That a separation is the only hope I have to demand respect. But I lose my children half the time in order to gain that respect, and then of course there is the chance I may never regain that respect and that leaving will turn permanent and I will permanently be without my kids for half the time. I just don't know what to do, whenever I think about this stuff, I end up feeling like I'm losing my mind. There are so many perspectives and so many facets, so many positives and negatives, so many risks. I don't want to do just what's best for me, I also want what's best for my kids, but I can't see life from their eyes, so I don't know what they think. They're just babies, they need their mommy...if I move out, will they think I left them???
"Happiness is a butterfly, which, when pursued, is always just beyond your grasp, but which, if you will sit down quietly, may alight upon you."
