How to GAL when SP is jealous/trust is broken??

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I don't think back much about what I could have done.

This is probably the healthiest both for oneself and the M. It's almost MLCish of me to think along those lines. I wonder if it's possible to have a MLC at 30?!

That sucks! I don't want or believe in lap dances.

He says he never paid for one, they were always paid for by someone else at the table. And actually, now that I think about it, he may have said table dance....perhaps there is a difference between a table dance and a lap dance? Either way, the scene is extremely sketchy. To my knowledge though, he hasn't been to one of these types of bars in years.

~Update~
H and I seem to have recovered from all the little and not so little fights we've had in the last few weeks. We are talking, doing things as a family and having sex. For now.
We'll see what tomorrow brings. Pessimistic, I know, but it seems to be the pattern. We get along for a while and something happens to cause a huge fight again.
H hasn't brought his thumb drive home all week. It's usually on the bureau. He's been carrying it back and forth from work for literally a year now and all of a sudden, once he realizes I've been snooping, he quits leaving it out within my sight.
I plan to tell him quite simply that I am done snooping through his stuff, that I found out all I needed to know. And I plan to tell him that at least now I am on the same page as him. I never knew how acceptable it was to disregard the other person's feelings and opinions, but if that is the way our M will be so be it. At least I know that's the way it is. Here all this time, I thought we were somewhat respectful of how each other felt about things. Bottom line, don't expect things from me that you are not willing to give yourself. That is part of setting boundaries for me and redefining what is acceptable in our M. I cannot control him or what he chooses to do. But I will not let him dictate what I do, while he goes behind my back to do what he pleases.
In some ways, this feels like a battle that responding to in this manner won't get me anywhere. It may not get me anywhere with H, but it will make me feel much more empowered in myself to know that I am making my own decisions and not letting H one-sidedly influence me. I will not be manipulated.
Update on my hair falling out~Doctor thinks it is stress related since I don't have any other symptoms. I'm having a blood panel done July 5 and I should have the results back on my hormone panel within a couple of weeks.
Tonight I bought myself a bracelet. I wanted something to wear to remind me of all that I have been through and all that has been accomplished. When I want to react to H or act out, instead I will look at it and it will remind me that I am in control of me and no one else. What I say and do is determined by me and I alone am responsible for making good choices and sticking to my goals. I really think a visual reminder will help.
Right now, my daily struggle is that it is really hard to live with someone who truly disregards me. I have a lot of pride and I find that I don't quite know how to deal with it. Any suggestions or questions to help me figure out the dynamics of my R would be greatly appreciated.
Good night all.