Excellent goals Heather! I think they'll go a long way to re-establishing trust. Have you specifically asked H (when he's talking to you) what would help reassure him?
And as for the love/hate thing. Yup. It's normal and part of the roller coaster. Don't worry about these emotions... it will be awhile before you settle on one for any length of time. Worry more about your choices and behaviours. And treat yourself well!!!! Don't punish yourself... redeem yourself.
