~Update~ H starting to talk a little more, mostly through the kids (like, "daddy's taking a shower then we'll go to the beach" would be his way of letting me know his plans). He's mentioned buying a boat a couple times and we stopped and looked at one on the way back from dinner Sat night. There is NO way he can afford a boat on his own, so I highly doubt he's done anything legally, like had separations papers drawn or anything. I decided to reclaim my email account by changing my password back, but I sent him an email giving him the new password. I didn't go to karate Friday night or Sunday afternoon, but I don't want to give it up entirely. I usually go on Monday nights, so should I go tonight?? I'm mixed up on giving H what he needs to regain trust vs continuing something I love doing. More importantly, quitting would make me feel like I'm not respecting myself and how I feel. Or maybe that just doesn't matter right now? Overall, considering he's not speaking to me, I've been pretty pleasant. Talking to him now and then, saying things that don't require an answer.
"Happiness is a butterfly, which, when pursued, is always just beyond your grasp, but which, if you will sit down quietly, may alight upon you."
