Akron~ I totally understand what you're saying, I really do. But what does STEALING my password accomplish? I would have given it if he had asked and like I said I was about to provide it anyway. It's like we can't make any progress because he keeps pushing me. It's been a struggle to try to think of ways to prove that I'm sorry because he keeps FORCING everything. Kicking me out of my bed. Taking off his ring. Not riding in my vehicle, hence forcing me to eventually sell it and paying a financial consequence as well. Stealing my password. In the apex of filing papers, a voice recorder I borrowed from a friend was in my coat and turned up missing and he emphatically denies taking it. A book I had on being married to alcoholics turned up ripped in half. He won't kiss me. I'm so preoccupied "paying" that I haven't had the desire to think of ways to be "sorry".
Zen~ Those are totally reasonable requests. What do you mean by "go out"? Because to my knowledge I'm not allowed out, socially speaking. Karate is my only independent activity. So the only things to keep him informed on are if I'm running late from work, or going to the grocery store or Target or something. But normally we do all of those things together as a family.
"Happiness is a butterfly, which, when pursued, is always just beyond your grasp, but which, if you will sit down quietly, may alight upon you."
