I just posted something on another thread that I felt was some important insight into my own situation. I said "A cheater's worst enemy is their own mind. The less you say, the more they think. And the more they think, the more they come back to reality". I said this in reference to the way my H shut me out after I told him what I did. I had a lot of time to repent. NY said I over analyze a lot. I think that's because I've been trained by the best!! My H is famous for ignoring me and not discussing. It puts knots in my stomach. Add to that the fact that I have been a fighter/yeller and once I get it out I can usually feel better. Two totally different styles and both of us would have been so much better off had we learned to communicate somewhere between those two extremes. God, my M is so dysfunctional and always has been. It just wasn't evident unless there was a problem. And there's never been a problem as big as this one.....and now it all seems so unsurmountable. I know that's why we make goals and celebrate baby steps. That's so important. I thought I had a really good start on that and was pretty excited b/c for the first time since I started on this board, I was actually going to apply some of the things I've learned instead of just reading it. Now it may be too late.
"Happiness is a butterfly, which, when pursued, is always just beyond your grasp, but which, if you will sit down quietly, may alight upon you."
