I did make a lot of progress writing goals in my journal and I was going to post them here, but I just don't have the energy...I'm so frustrated. Marital problems are not for the weak are they? Our trouble has been felt by me for about two years now and things got really bad a year ago when I told H about my betrayal. So, it's been a lot of ups and downs in that time. My hair has been falling out in the shower, more than I would say is normal. I think stress is taking it's toll... H still will not talk to me. He won't answer my phone calls. I had to discuss a child related issue this morning and he wouldn't answer the phone. He's planning to take them to Chuck E Cheese tonight but won't tell me what time they're going, i.e. will they already be there when I get out of work? I ask and he just ignores, like he didn't even hear the question or sometimes I get a dismissing look of disgust as a reply. My R with S4 always suffers when H and I don't get along. S4 always seems to look right through me as though he feels he has to take sides and I'm clearly not the choice. I got frustrated this morning when he wouldn't answer the chuck e cheese question and I the kids were already in the car, I went back in the house and asked what all this means. I asked if he planned to talk about it with me or if this means we're back to seeing lawyers? No answer. My PMA is in the gutter and I feel sick to my stomach.
"Happiness is a butterfly, which, when pursued, is always just beyond your grasp, but which, if you will sit down quietly, may alight upon you."
