I feel very depressed today and I did last night. Why? I just don't get it. My mind is wandering again and going back thinking about all that has happened in the past 6 months, and I just feel down. I even have thoughts where I just HATE my H. I know that is awful, but I do have those thoughts, they come and go. And I know things seem to be improving, but I do sometimes feel hate for all H has done. I don't know maybe I started feeling this way last night because I know today H will be in the office with OW. Maybe it is my defense mechanism...
I need to get over this, I know I do. But, when I start to feel like this I start to think maybe I should just file for the big old D...? That most likely is not the answer but I seem to get these feelings on and off and I just don't get it because I do think H is making an effort. Maybe it is because they will be together all day today. Any thoughts or advice from anyone?
