Haven't had a lot of time to post. I go off to Vegas next Thursday. Am quite excited! Buuuttt..... I am also scared. Went to see my T today. I told her H and I have been fine on phone but thought of hooking up with him in person again is bringing up lots of tension.
Am remembering whole crappy s@#t that caused our row before he left. I know part of it is that I am afraid to be happy in my M. Terrified that I will be hurt again. Also afraid I am expecting soooo much from seeing H that I will be let down.
T pointed out that my awareness gives me the ability to change the outcome. She says I can lower my expectations and also talk with H before I go about the fact that I am feeling a little freaked about it.
Don't know if I can talk to him. She says perhaps he's feeling same way. Will let you guys know what I decide. But I AM SOO EXCITED ABOUT SEEING HIM AND HAVING FUN OUT THERE!!!
Hey guys I do think we will all be okay. Sheila, yeah the smothering thing is not working for me either. Thank you all for just being out there. Knowing that others are coping with their sitchs helps me sooo much.
