I hate to barge in on your discussion, but I want you both to know that I'm right there with you on this too! My H has been trying so hard to make our M better and the more he tries, the more I find a reason to push him away. I even convinced myself over the weekend that it was over and told him that. I am so afraid of the future.. so afraid of trusting him again and being hurt that I turn everything that happens into a reason why we can't work it out. The changes he's made in the last two months are amazing, but I just can't bring myself to accept that he loves me and is willing to work on our M. I keep thinking that he must've really loved her to walk away from us when I asked him to come home. and I know deep down that it was depression that left him confused and angry, and that she was only a one-night stand and someone to talk to. I mean, he's been home for two months, and says he'll never leave me no matter how hard I make it on him and that he's going to be right here loving me no matter how angry I am and that he wants to help heal my heart. It's all that I wanted, and still I'm trying to destroy it!
Thanks for the advice you posted.. I'm going to start trying to look at the positives and chart PROGRESS instead of the past and blowing up suspicions.
