Ok I don't know why I stay away from the BB when I am down. It really helps me to read what other people are dealing with and triumphing over.
I know that monogamy is hard to achieve for lots of men. But it is not impossible. My H and I have had lots of talks and he even said to me that it was important to keep the M on a positive, even keel so that when temptation comes you think hard about whether you want to go there.
That said as dbf says on Deb's thread-the a was not about me. I do think some of the stuff I did contributed to it and I want to and intend to change those things.
I am not boring or unexciting.
I will keep dbing, keep thought stopping, keep the negative demons at bay. I will change my life and me for the better.
And I can try to be the best me there is and hopefully save my M in the process.
