If it helps even the smallest amount, I can remember similar moments while first piecing. Didn't you say that things had been going really well and positively? Sounds like the "perfect" time for your demons to rise up and point a few fingers...you know, the fear takes over when things look good.
Good for you for looking at it square in the face and very bravely. Do something extra special for yourself today, ok?
BTW, as I'm sure you know...the insecurity feeds on itself...so snooping, hacking, etc, will all increase the panic (well, IMHO).
Sage
Relax. Appreciate. Be calm. Laugh. Enjoy. Be secure. Be loving. Be loved. Don't personalize. Don't ASSume. Accept. Be grateful.
