Today I have been soo overwhelmed by work. I am completely exhausted. Feel as if I am being forced to make a choice between my M and my work.
My work seems to be demanding everything and there will be nothing left over for my M. But DBing requires all the energy I have. What to do? I don't know.
Okay I am a perverse creature. It was a holiday here on Monday. H came home straight from work on Saturday, we spent all of Sunday and Monday together. Went kayaking on Monday. Will tell you about that!
But so okay this was great. But today I am wondering if H is arrangign to meet some ow this pm. He says he may go exercising. H has karate on Mondays and Wednesdays and we do some form of exercise either swimming or walking in the am before work.
H went to his doctor last week. The doc said h's blood pressure was slightly elevated. ALthough he said another test would have to be taken to see if it really had gone up, he did tell H that exercise would help prevent such problems.
In the past few months H has started meditation in the am and so has not been exercising as much. Also since he was exercising in the am he was not going out at night. I also felt H was not out with ow so was at home more in evening.
Now with doc tellign him about exercise and H struggling to lose weight he wants to start exercising in pm again. I want what is best for H but I hate the fact that he will be out every night.
I used to go with him in the pm and he has hinted that maybe we can start walking in the evening again. That would be nice but I think all this exercise plus work pressures are going to do me in!
I don't want to ask if i can go to gym with H because it will look like i am trying to monitor H to make sure he's not up to something (this will be true).
I know I know that if H wanted to be up to anything he could do it any way.
