I guess i get frustrated because I sometimes feel H wants me to be superwoman. The house is clean. The bathrooms are clean. OUr bedroom is clean. The kitchen is clean. Its the computer room and the guest room that are in a state.
I have all my many books and papers lying about the computer room and the laundered clothes for ironing end up in the guest room.
H's mom is a clean freak and would think her house was filthy if she were away for a week and a little dust settled on the furniture. Maybe he gets it from her.
In first 2yrs of M we fought constantly about the housework if we did not have a housekeeper. Because H would not do anything except make a bigger mess(this is a guy who would throw his garbage in the sink cuz it was too much work to open the cupboard door and throw it in the garbage container).
I remember one time we did not have a housekeeper and the house was fine but the ironing piled up. I was quite proud that I was managing so well. Well, H came home one day, said the house was upside down, and took all his unironed clothes to the laundry.
He later told me it cost him $200 to have all the stuff laundered and I should do the ironing and not let that happen again.
H has changed a lot since then. He will help clean up. Will empty the garbage, wash dishes and does the laundry, except for the ironing.
I do the sweeping, mopping, bedmaking, bathroom cleaning, ironing and most of the dish washing.
I just get all these mixed messages from H. IT does not help who he chose to have the a with. I asked H if he wanted me to quit and be a housewife. He says its not a problem with him if I do and he can support me.
He seemed quite keen on it for a while and then said I would get depressed being in the house and it would turn into a problem for him so I should not quit.
Also H has his own business so can come and go as he pleases. On a morning he would want me to type emails for him or look for something on the internet for him.
In the evening he wants to go to the beach as he loves to swim. He would invite me with him but would want to leave work early.
I don't like the stress of my job and would like to do somehting else. I have some ideas and have taken small, very small steps toward doing them. I would like to leave the job but now H says no don't do it.
Maybe he is right. If I leave I will be at H's mercy in terms of money. That's not a good idea. Anyway this is just my rant for today.
