Forgot to add, I will start reading it again on my own.
I feel very anxious today. Under a lot of pressure at work but don't think that's it. During our R talks over the weekend H said words to the effect that he's not doing anything and getting grief so he feels like he should jsut give up and do whatever he wants and to hell with how i feel about it.
He went on to say he does not want to do that because it will mean the end of our M. I am afraid. Because I have thought a lot about what led to the a. and think it happened partly because i gave H such a hard time over looking at and being friendly with ows.
Please note his friendliness was not inappropriate. I now realise that my H likes attention and likes to be noticed by ow. I think my harrassing him constantly about this stuff led to his cheating.
I mean he did what he wanted to do yes, but my behaviour played a part. I am afraid that my backsliding now will cause a similar sitch.
