I took Sage's advice and have moved over here to piecing! I was thinking of doing it for some time and that was all the encouragement I needed.
My H never left home and seems committed to our M. I discovered his a. on Oct 16, 2004. H has denied and continues to deny the a. I left him for about a month. H got really sick and begged me to come back. I did on condition that we go to a MC. We did that for a while, it helped some. I continue to see her. H said he didnt' want to go anymore and he stopped going.
This is his 2nd M, my first. He has two kids S21 and D19 from first M. We have no children. H is 46 I am 41.
Something I don't want to post here but feel I need to. The a. was with our former housekeeper. I think it started while she was still working for us. I think they were intimate in our house. It went on for a year and a half.
So the level of betrayal I have felt is pretty intense. I guess it would be that way no matter who the a had been with.
Okay that was nasty- recapping unpleasant memories.
H. has said he is sorry and apologised numerous times for hurting me (all without admitting anything).
He says he loves me and is glad he did not have to lose me to realise what he has.
Anyway, I still struggle with trust issues and some other stuff.
For now I am trying to trust H and enjoy where we are at in the M.
I have come over here in piecing because I have finally decided to stay in the M and try to make it work. I have also decided to forgive my H.
