Hi dfb and Hope, yes, I think xow is totally whacko, even more so than I always thought. Lord how I hope that H is seeing that. I am just still blown away that he would get involved with someone like HER; just incredible.
Can the stuff being gone from her dash mean the b---h has finally given up????????? it's gone, all of it except for the razorback as I said earlier....
I find I'm still such a bottomless pit for reassurance though. I havent heard from H since just before noon, and I start to get anxious because in the past this was their "planning day"....however, his emails were "flirty" and actually said ILY this morning, so I'm hoping (and praying) he's just busy and trying to do his paper work.
I was thinking though, a couple of weeks ago when he said he was going to have to do paper work on Saturday and I took him to task about it....I have honestly come to the conclusion that it is a good thing I did. my eerie little "brain niggles" tell me that ow was pressuring him to go down there again...and H was wilting under the pressure and getting drawn back in. H has alluded to it even here in the last 2 weeks, saying things about her "pressuring" him to "go there"...It bothers me to think that is so, but I'm just certain that's what was going on. and I'm really GLAD I did call him on it....I didnt make any threats or anything, just said his going to work wasnt the problem, and he knew what the problem was and why, and I was anxious about it. then I let it drop, and he printed off his schedule and brought it home, and suggested I could go over with him, but then he didnt go that Saturday morning. I'm praying he won't go this Saturday either. that will make 6 that he hasnt gone, closing in on the record which is either 6 or 8 (of course then he went back to ow)...
H made the commented night before last that "other women seem to see through her" when we were talking about ow...last night he said that she started working here in Nov. of 02, and that 2 weeks after she started she was emailing him, H said "I don't know why" and "at first it seemed ok, just friendly chit-chat"....my thoughts were "I know why, because like any shark she recognizes fresh meat and can smell the blood in the water, and then begins to circle before she strikes" and "yeah, duh, H, that's why it's known as the slippery slope"...I just smiled at him though, and said, yes, I always knew that...which is true, I did, because I remember EXACTLY when his attitude towards me got so distinctly cold and distant.
H also commented within the last week that "you were right though about satan and temptation"...don't know what he was thinking for sure, I've made some references that I don't think what was going on between them came from God...I guess h must have been reflecting on feeling like he got "sucked in". Actually I think I've heard him use that term.
Oh, Lord, I hope the a is really over for good this time. I'm not at all sure how much longer I can last otherwise.
