I havent heard much from H today, email wise, but I'm trying not to be anxious about it. Actually doing pretty well....however, it did occur to me in reflecting on H's comments this morning that yep, she's been trying to get things fired up again. However, H seems to be adamant at this time, and has been for a couple of weeks, that I have nothing to be anxious about!!!!!!!!

The nerve of that b---h, though....she will never give up! How I hope H makes it stick this time!!!!!

I obviously need to focus my energies on making things so good that I'm the obvious choice....which means really means I gotta get back on track....

I did have something interesting, very interesting happen though, totally unrelated to h/r/m/ow/dbing....anything. I can't believe this....anyway, so weird. but great. i have this really nasty ugly painful varicose vein on the inside of my left calf. It's been there since I got blood clots when I was pregnant with D 23 years ago....Dr. has sent me to a surgeon to consult about it, but he didnt want to remove it...so anyway, I've been stuck with it. Now, I am incredibly skeptical of "natural" remedies. but last Friday I stopped by the health food store to pick up a scented oil (part of my GAL plan, so maybe it is all related) and saw a bottle of Horse Chestnut herbs....thought oh, what the heck, it probably won't hurt...bought it....have been taking it for a week tomorrow. I know, I should have checked with my physician, which I havent, but will....
But, this is amazing ....that ugly nasty thing has stopped hurting, the swelling has gone down, it has shrank and NEARLY DISAPPEARED. I noticed it didnt hurt as much 2 days after I started taking the horse chestnut, and thought then it was perhaps the placebo effect. but now I'm certain it has changed unbelievably. the area around it used to be all hot to the touch, now it is the same temp as the surrounding tissue, it doesnt hurt, swelling is visibly lessened, and the vein itself is hardly visibly at all, after years of being ugly and purple. I even asked H last night about it....and he agreed with me that it is much different. so different HE was shocked.

Now if I could just find something like that for weight!

been around awhile!