i know, Hope, you (and Ellie) are absolutely right that this is when I gotta keep myself on a calm, even keel. I'm gonna focus on maybe just doing some little fun things to try to keep myself a little more distracted from it all...gonna workout this after noon, maybe do a teeny bit of shopping. However, I still have to finish up the darn kitchen...ick, I will be so glad to get that done. cross your fingers for me!