It was in the past that he told the lies about the weekends thinking you would believe them. He has now fessed up to those lies and I honestly dont think he would use the same excuse.
Now is the time you have to take that huge leap of faith. As I have told you before, it will be the hardest thing you have ever done. But if you don't you will drive him away. The guilt is already eating at him and you are making it worse by questioning him at every turn (no matter how justified your concerns are) He cannot live in a bubble. He cannot quit his job right now. He can however keep his word, but you have no control over whether or not he does. That is where the leap of faith comes in.
Go home tonight and tell him you are sorry you reacted so badly, it is just that this news has come so close to all of his recent disclosures. You have not had enough time to digest it all and trust in it. Tell him you are working on it and understand that life does not move at your pace and you are trying to catch up. You are doing your best.. Ask him if he minds if you tag along the first few times or so to make yourself feel more secure.... Tell him you see the differences you have mentioned, you are trying to trust in them and appreciate all of his effort....
Hang in there Deb. You will have his understanding for awhile but it is gonna wear thin if you cannot get a handle on it. The hurt will be no different if he is lying again... you cannot protect yourself with your fears.....
let go and give him (yet another) chance. I know you really want this to work and you have nothing more to lose.
