Deb, please, please try to trust just a little. Not just for him but for your own piece of mind. I know exactly what you were feeling just then--I felt it so many times myself--anxiety, fear, frustration, anger, hopelessness. All because of a trigger that made you decide something bad was going to happen. I've done it too and it takes time to get over it. Patience and TIME. My H told me many times that we did have a chance of getting together but that he needed me to stop assuming and getting myself all worked up. He was done with OW but he was afraid I would be clinging to him all the time, and I would be suspicious of everything. He didn't come back home until he was sure I had been able to change that. And I wanted to change it for my own sanity too. Thank God for this program, my C and prozac cuz that's what got me through. The people on this board are life savers.
When something triggers you, come here and vent--don't send him an e-mail and then come here. Come here first and get the support to help you through without going to him. I know you can do this, Deb!
