Cheer up go back to my posts and read cause i've just been there and done that . Know exactly all the feelings you are having too. So get some comfort in knowing you are not ALONE we are here for you.
It's hard but my H OW took him back cause he's smooth and gets what he wants. I have really found that just by smiling everytime we talk and seeming much more positive in as many convos as i can (trust me i have been on the backslide too lately) he is noticing something is different. Everytime i have to talk to him re kids i say good morning or afternoon instead of just hi and i always end the conversation with I HOPE YOU HAVE A GREAT DAY AND NITE. He's even been responding with you too (kind of sarcastically) and i say thanks or if it's all done in text i dont reply and let him have the last word(180 for me a huge one) i seem like his beloved OW and i think i might just maybe have him thinking about things for at least a minute...but that's a minute more than before. I guess what i'm trying to say (but am oh so tired 1:53 am)is everytime he has tried to blame me for something these last couple of days and weeks i am meeting him with understanding which is confusing him to death and then he has no one to fight with except HER
Hope makes sense as i am extremely tired. Maybe my insomnia is going away a little tonight and i will get more than 3 hours of sleep.
Take care and keep your happy, understanding chin up mountain Goddess!!
. Know exactly all the feelings you are having too. So get some comfort in knowing you are not ALONE we are here for you. 