Yeah thanks Yoyo - I actually did the wrong thing and rang him b4 as I needed to know what to tell S9. He said just tell him I will pick him up in the morning b4 you go to work. I said O.K. and he then started talking and said look I am really not very good company at the moment and need a night to myself as OW wants nothing to do with me(boohoo) I said well I can understand that but really there was no need to take it out on me and he said I know but it really doesn't matter anymore she is gone. I said I realise that but it hurts me when i get the blame for something that I had nothing to do with. He said yeah o.k. or something like that not much anyway I said H remember I do know how it feels and he said I know you do so you should understand how I feel at the moment. I said as hard as it is for me I do but at least no kids are involved and it hasn't been 12yrs. (I know but I couldn't help it) Anyway I then said look I will let you go and will see you in the morning but don't do anything stupid as you have a son who idealises you. He said yeah I know I will keep thinking of that. I said O.K. I am at home if you need me. He said thanks and that was that. I really felt like saying to him suffer now you know what it feels like but I cannot deprive my son of his father and I try to keep the peace for sons sake. This made me feel like crap though as all this hurt for a woman he has been with for a few weeks properly and just been shagging for the rest of the time and behind my back. I tried to do some DBing but my god was it hard. Anyway now I don't know whether I act sympathetic or indifferent????? I hate that I still love him it would be so much easier if I didn't.....DKD
