Journalling. Well H and S came home Monday night which was good but nothing to report on H and myself. H rang me Tuesday to say hi and that things still were not good with OW. He then came into my office later on Tuesday just to say hi and then wanted to have a quickie as nobody else was in the office, but yes I refused. Then he went out with OW for tea "as friends" Tuesday night and then he rang me at 9.00 to meet up. I nearly said no but I weakened and yes we ML H came and saw me early Wednesday and rang me last night. I haven't heard from him today but have heard from OW. Wish she would just F Off. Just wanted to say that she wasn't even going to see him as friends any more as it is all too hard and that she wishes me luck with him. (haha) As if I need her Goodluck. Anyhow I just messaged back thanks we will be fine once you and him are sorted out but that is between you and him, I have no issues. This way I am telling her nothing and I know I will get yelled out by some of you for even replying but I tell you this way I know whether my H is telling me the truth. So far everything he tells me gets backed up by her in the end so at least he seems to be being honest with me at the moment and that is all I have asked for is honesty. I don't know where him and I will end up that remains to be seen but honesty and communication are two of the main things we as a team needed to work on and he agrees too so that is what we are working on as friends. It can only help us in the long run. I am focussing at the moment on being a good friend, a good listener, being sympathetic and understanding to what he is going through, being supportive and non judgemental. I only hope I can keep this up as it does feel unnatural considering that this is all to do with OW but if I can practise it well enough now maybe I will find it easier to continue once she is out of the picture. God I hope she goes and stays out but that is what I am monitoring at the moment. As I half think H is going thru a MLC I truly believe he has to get this OW completely out of his system and at the risk of him meeting someone else he needs a bit of time alone to way up all he has been through and I just have to hope with all my support and non suffocating behaviour he will realise that what he needs is right under his nose. I bet I will hear from him sometime later today or tonight. I will be seeing him tomorrow as he is helping me move house. So I may not be able to post for the next 3 days due to moving. Should be an interesting weekend. Come on bring it on I have been so honest in this post I know someone is going to find fault with me for not obeying all the rules but it is working for me at the moment or am I just being delusional, tell me if I am as the quicker I wake up to myself the better.......DK
as nobody else was in the office, but yes I refused. Then he went out with OW for tea "as friends" Tuesday night and then he rang me at 9.00 to meet up. I nearly said no but I weakened and yes we ML 