I could tell he was feeling very comfortable and he started making moves and I knew what they meant he wanted to ML. Can you believe that - Hellkat you know what I am talking about I am sure. Anyhow one thing lead to another and we did

DK I know way too well what you mean girl! lol! I would love to tell you not to give in at those moments, but I know how hard that is because for the longest I gave in to the point where it turned into a twice a week thing. And I cant really say that I 'regret' sleeping w/H in the beginning of our separation, but after a while it got hard to separate my emotions from just sex. I tried, I told myself that's what I was doing and then it became more and more about emotions and that was hard as it made things that much harder. But again, it was something that I had to go thru in order to know. But the humorous part is regardless of how much H say he loves OW and she is his life
and blah blah blah. I guarentee you I the next time I saw him if I said let's hit it he'd be all over it. who knows maybe after some time once OW has gotten all nice and comfy w/H, I'll give her a taste of her own medicine, hee-hee. But that's just the hellkat in me.


H afterwards said why did you pressure me about her 2 weeks ago things may have been very different right now if you hadn't

when they say things like this, does it ever make you want to just go 'gee - you'd be amazed at the things your H's affair will make you do." They know why the BS do what we do - I think they just like to hear that we still care, that they still matter and that we still get jealous. It's a major ego boost - yet a pitiful excuse.

2 weeks ago my husband wanted us to be back together then 2 days later he decides he is staying with OW and now he is playing both again. I know I have let him but 12 years of loving someone and you cant just hate them it takes awhile to get them out of your system and he is nowhere near out of mine yet......

Your right, you cant just hate them, you cant just fall out of love and I do belive a person should travel every ave. possible to try and make their M work before you can even think of letting go. And DK I gotta tell you, reading your posts, I feel as if I'm reading my own. Like you it was a while before I figured out they were having an A for an entire year before I found out, and for the last year I went every route possible, whether it was right or wrong it didnt matter. There were times when I had no pride and took what I could get and times when I refused to stand for anything less then I deserved. But it was something I HAD to do before I could even conceive the idea of letting go. I had to go thru it to get thru it, I think we all do.

But no matter what DK, know your worth and dont settle for anything less. You are the better person and dont forget that!