Thank you so much, for your concern and also your empathy.
Things took an odd turn for me last night. After I came home from work, my husband came to me, with his cell phone in one hand. First thing he said was, "I want to show you something, but don't be upset". He then proceeded to hand me his cell phone, with a text message on it that read, "I love you". Then I looked up at him, and he said, "I have no idea who's number that is that sent it, and when I tried to call it it went to voicemail with no name". He then said that it was either a bad joke on someone's part or a mistake. I was incredibly upset, but at the sametime, this odd feeling came over me. There isn't a word for this feeling...it just had to do with seeing him reaching out to me, wanting to build trust with me and wanting me to know everything that was happening.
A bit later, we called the number again. Hilariously, the message ended up being from his son (my step son). His mother had just bought him a cell phone, and he was text messaging his dad to tell him he loved him.
Now I'm so incredibly unsure again. I asked him to stop packing stuff...and that I wanted to give us more of a try. Am I wrong for that? Is it wrong for me to keep pushing him away and pulling him back? I know it isn't fair to him, but I can't help thinking I need to do what feels right to me.
I'm just a heap of scattered emotions, and now I'm wondering if I even have a clue about what is good/right for me!!!
