Quote: What else might you realistically look for, or ask for, that would give you reassurance right now?
After thinking about this question over the weekend. The answer I've come to is, "nothing". There isn't anything I could look for or ask for that would give me any reassurance.
I've decided it's not possible to work on our marriage. The hurt and betrayal just isn't going away, so I've asked him to move out.
I asked if he could live with his parents through this year, while we utilize the remaining 7 months to pay bills off as much as possible, so there are as few "joint" accounts for us to worry about. Then I'd like to put our house up for sale the start of the new year, and once it's sold, split everything. After this, we'll work out whatever schedule or plan needed to ensure our son is provided for.
My family lives in another state, so I am considering moving there after the divorce, however I'm concerned about how this will affect my son. The distance is very far between states (mid-west to south-east ends of the U.S.) but I really need the support of my family.
He's agreed to everything, so this week we are packing whatever he needs to take to this parent's home.
Thank you for all of your support, especially you, NYsurvivor. It is muchly appreciated. Either I'm not a strong enough person to look past these indiscretions, or maybe I'm just not built, emotionally, to be able to.