Sage,

Wow! Those were definitely some great words of encouragement, thank you! Just knowing that time does heal some wounds gives me a more positive outlook, especially coming from someone who has gone through a similar situation.

I guess I never thought about looking for books on "forgiveness". All this time, I've told him and myself that I've forgiven him, but maybe I haven't. I'm going to look for those books, and others at the bookstore today.

NYsurvivor,

Unfortunately, we don't have any clinics or medical teaching clinics that offer counseling, so I'm just going to save up and make it a goal of mine in a few weeks. Thank you again for the suggestion!

Now...if I could just get him to not have to see her everyday at work. I think that's part of my issue of moving on. I know he sees her everyday, and still talks to her. I don't want to be overbearing and constantly ask him, "did you talk to her today? what did you talk about? where did you talk? how long did you talk? were you alone?" I did that a lot at the beginning, and he always answered the questions, but I haven't been asking lately, and I wish he'd volunteer the info, but I don't want to smother him either. This feeling of walking on eggshells and wondering if I'm doing this or that right just angers me sometimes. I think to myself, "why is it that I need to worry if I'm smothering him or making him uncomfortable, when he's the one that did wrong!?" I know I need to get out of the "blame game", but I'm human, and sometimes it's unavoidable I think.

Anyhow...that was me rambling ....sorry about that.


Thanks again for the advice and support!! Hopefully I an be strong and positive like you someday, Sage!!