H is out finishing up some of his final service calls. Last night was a poker night for him. He said that he is going to do this 5 days a week. That's fine with me. I really don't care anymore, and I just hope he doesn't neglect QT with the kids.
H said he would be back around 1pm so I could get my manicure done. He told the boys he would take them mini-golfing when I returned.
H is still showing me affection (hugs and ILYs), and I am returning them, but.....I don't know.
S9 and S5 will most likely go to MIL's for tonight, and the baby is going to my parents. I'm sure H will be going to the poker party tonight. H said the other day that he wanted me to go with him, but I don't really want to. I haven't talked to any of my friends in a month now, so I think I'll give them a call and see what they're up to.
If my parents will watch the baby again for tomorrow or Sunday, I want to take S9 and S5 to Stinson Beach -- they love it there! If H wants to come, fine, but I just feel like I don't want to be around him now. How sad is that?
I need to start doing for me again -- and the boys. I need to feel that I can get out of this house and have a good time by myself or with my boys. I can't sit here any longer feeling like I'm nothing but a responsibility to someone else.
I hope everyone has a great 4th !
JV
"I can't change the direction of the wind, but I can adjust my sails to always reach my destination."
Valerie
"I can't change the direction of the wind, but I can adjust my sails to always reach my destination." ~ author unknown
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