Trying to find our way to happiness II

[ValerieA]

Journaling:

Today went pretty well.

We had a convo this afternoon where H expressed his concerns about finding another job. H said he's just not sure what he wants to do. He wants to do something that he can be proud of, something that the boys will be proud of, but he said he doesn't know what that would be. H said, "It's not like I can go back to school or anything." I asked, "Why not?! Of course you could." H just shook his head and said he didn't know. H said, "(Sigh).....maybe I SHOULD just take a month off. I can get unemployment until I find something. I just don't want nothing coming in, you know?......I don't know......I just feel lethargic....and depressed.....Maybe I SHOULD go see a therapist."

I said, "Well....I think that can only be a good thing. In fact, I was thinking I'd like to go see one myself." H said, "If it wasn't for me, you wouldn't feel that way.....I don't know. I'll think about it."

Things went smoothly the rest of the day for us. I called MIL and asked her if she could watch the baby for me while I took S9 and S5 to play mini-golf. I haven't gone in awhile, so I thought it would be fun. When I told H about MIL watching the baby, he asked, "Are all of us going?" I said, "Yeah!" H said alright and he just had to schedule a few service calls first. He also asked if I could drive him to Napa to pick up the Jaguar -- its A/C was being serviced.

H wanted to take a quick shower, so I went to drop off the baby with MIL and came back to pick up H and the boys. On our way towards the freeway while we were stopped at a stoplight, H said, "That's what we should be doing." I looked around to see what he was talking about and asked him, then I saw that the couple in front of us was kissing, and I said "Oh." I think I must have had a serious brain lapse or something because I uttered out loud, "I remember -- " then I stopped myself . I was thinking, "I remember those times," but stopped when I heard myself actually beginning to say it .

Anyway, when I caught myself thinking out loud, H leaned over the center console with a big smile then I leaned in with a kiss !

Then H asked me to finish what I was going to say. I kind of didn't want to, but he pushed for it, and I told him. H said, " We'll get'em back."

So we made it to Napa, and H asked me to wait for him so we could drive side by side on our way back to play mini-golf. He went in the shop to pay for the work done on the Jag and was in there talking for about 15 minutes while the boys and I waited in the truck. When H came out, he came to me and said he was sorry for taking that long. I told H no problem, and he gave me another kiss .

We all had a GREAT time playing mini-golf ! I hope we can have some more soon.

H is at the gym now and is going to pick up some movies for us.

Have a good night, everyone , and thank you for listening.

JV

"I can't change the direction of the wind, but I can adjust my sails to always reach my destination."