Trying to find our way to happiness II

[ValerieA]

I think what set me off earlier today was not hearing from H last night and his call from today.

Last night, my mind was running rampant . I kept thinking what if H is out with (bf) at another bar like pre-bomb days, (bf) would most likely be drinking and H might be tempted, and what if (bf) was getting "friendly" with some females with H being right there, too . It was a very sleepless night for me.

I was feeling better this morning despite my tossing and turning all night. I tried giving H a call, but he didn't answer. I'm sure he was busy with an install.

H did call around noon and started telling me that he poked (bf) in the eye real bad last night. I asked, "What were you guys doing?", and H just immediately snapped, "What does it f***ing matter?! I'm trying to tell you that I had to take (bf) to the hospital last night and all you can do is ask, (childishly mocking me) "What were you doing?!"" I told H, "I did not ask you like that!" H said, "Well why are you f***ing asking me?! It's like you're questioning what I was doing last night!" I told H that I was getting off the phone now because I wasn't in the mood to be talked to that way. H said, "Fine! I'm getting back to work then. Bye!"

I called H from my cell about 4 hours later to see if he wanted to wish S9 good luck with his belt testing (we'll find out next week if he advanced), but he didn't answer. I kind of figured he wouldn't , so I left him a voicemail telling him why I had called. H never called me back.

After S9's testing, we went to pick up the baby from my parents then came home. No messages from H here either. I told S9 to call Dad to talk to him about his day, etc, and this time H answered. S9 spoke with him for a few minutes then gave me the phone. H said he was sleeping and was going to call me back earlier to say sorry for how he acted then he got really busy with work. H said he had to work by himself today because of (bf)'s eye injury -- it's severely bruised. They were goofing off last night and play fighting when H accidently jabbed (bf)'s eye with his finger. H said he was sorry again. He was really tired and feeling crappy so I told him to go back to sleep.

Anyway, the C -- I really want to go. Can anyone tell me how much it could cost? I am not looking forward to asking H if this is alright. I'll have to get it "ok'd" from him first. That probably sounds sad, but that's how money is dealt with here. I don't work, H does.

Thanks for listening.

JV

"I can't change the direction of the wind, but I can adjust my sails to always reach my destination."