I've been seriously thinking today about everything.

I'm having a really hard time dealing with all that has been said and done in this M. There is just too much hurt inside for me to ignore.

I love H, but I just cannot seem to get all the negative things he's said and done out of my mind. I know I have my faults, too, but I never went outside the R. I never told H I felt he ruined my life. I've never felt obligated to have with him because I felt I had no other choice. I never started "friendships" with anyone that didn't involve my H. I've never repeatedly told him that I would have left long ago if it weren't for the kids.

There's just so much pain inside. Too much to bear. I am going to make an appt for C. I really need help with sorting through these feelings. I can't try to do it on my own any longer. I can't pretend to be content when I know that I am not.

I've never been to a C before, so are there any particular questions I should ask of her before making an appt? I say "her" because I feel like I would be more comfortable seeing a female C.

Any help please. I really appreciate it. Thank you.

BTW, I'll be back later tonight. S9 has Tae Kwon Do belt testing in a couple hours. He's going for his Blue-Black belt.

JV

"I can't change the direction of the wind, but I can adjust my sails to always reach my destination."

Valerie

"I can't change the direction of the wind, but I can adjust my sails to always reach my destination." ~ author unknown

"Piecing is not for the faint of heart." ~ sage