It's been a bit of a struggle to remain positive today. Maybe it's because I haven't heard from H since Tuesday afternoon. I did call him myself earlier today just to say hello, but he hasn't called back. Hmmm.....he could just be really busy and very tired at the end of the day.
I haven't had anything to do either. The kids and I were housebound today -- it's been raining off and on. The house is clean, the laundry's done, the boys have kept themselves busy playing games and other things, and even the baby's busy . He's "commando crawling" all over the place .
My mind has been wandering again but not as much as many times before. I've had thoughts like, "I love H,.....but do I still really want to do this?" I remembered in our last R talk where I told H I didn't want to be in a loveless M, and I didn't want him to be here out of guilt. H had said, "Too late."......Hmm.
I don't feel down, but I'm not feeling upbeat either. I just feel kind of unsure about what I should do.
Just needed to get that out. Thanks.
JV
"I can't change the direction of the wind, but I can adjust my sails to always reach my destination."
Valerie
"I can't change the direction of the wind, but I can adjust my sails to always reach my destination." ~ author unknown
. He's "commando crawling" all over the place 
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but not as much as many times before. I've had thoughts like, "I love H,.....but do I still really want to do this?" I remembered in our last R talk where I told H I didn't want to be in a loveless M, and I didn't want him to be here out of guilt. H had said, "Too late."......Hmm.
