Journaling:

Not too much today. H called a few hours ago and immediately told me that he was going to vent . Oh well -- at least he prepared me .

Pretty much the same old same old going on over there. H is just so stressed out, and I'm sure the heat is playing a BIG part in it, too. H can be very crabby when he's hot. Heck, who isn't?!

I didn't know what more I could say to try to alleviate some of his stress. I told him to just hang in there, the week's almost up. I said, "Just try to take it easy....I don't know what else to say. I'm sorry, Daddy." H said, " Yeah, I'm Daddy....(sigh)....I'm sorry, JV. I just wish I was there to hold you. I wish you were here to hold me." I said, "I wish I was there for you, too, but I AM here for you."

H said he wished he had something positive to talk about with me, but he was really feeling like crap. H said he felt like he was on the verge of tears a few times today, and he even said he thinks he needs to see a psychiatrist !!!! I damn near fell off the stool! I couldn't believe what I heard!

I wanted to shout "YES!!!" but didn't of course . I simply told H that was his decision and left it at that. I wanted to push for it, but I know better.

H had to go as he was pulling up to (boss)'s house, and he told me "ILY" twice in our convo .

+ POSITIVES +

+ H said "ILY" twice today.
+ H said he was thinking of me and the boys today.
+ H expressed seeking comfort from ME (holding each other).
+ Although H snapped "Yeah, I'm Daddy," he did immediately apologize for it.
+ I didn't get even close to personalizing H's crabbiness today since he forewarned me.
+ H stated he thinks he may need professional help. This, as you all know, is VERY HUGE!!! I am definitely hoping for this, but I know that I can't push it or expect for it to happen. H will have to come to this decision on his own. (PLEASE! PLEASE! PLEASE! )

- NEGATIVES -

NONE today, thank you!

* THINGS TO WORK ON *

* What else could I say when H is feeling stressed out about not working soon? As I've said, there's more than plenty in the bank for H to take a few months off, but H worries regardless . What more could I say other than "We'll be fine -- take it easy"? Suggestions anyone?

Thanks for listening.

JV

"I can't change the direction of the wind, but I can adjust my sails to always reach my destination."

Valerie

"I can't change the direction of the wind, but I can adjust my sails to always reach my destination." ~ author unknown

"Piecing is not for the faint of heart." ~ sage