H called again about 15 minutes before he arrived home. He placed 9th in the tournament so he at least got his entry fee back. So I guess he decided not to stay and play some more.
We talked until he got into the garage. He asked if I wanted anything before he got here. I said no thanks. He talked to me a little bit about the tournament and then asked what I was up to. I told him I watched some TV. He asked if I recorded the "World Poker Tour" for him which I did so he could watch it when he got home.
H also asked me, "So when are you taking the kids to the zoo again?" I said this Saturday. My parents said to take the baby over there Friday night because they're going to visit my grandparents on Saturday so they're going to take him with them.
I was beginning to say "You're welcome to come if you'd like," but before I finished, H cut in with, "Yes, I'm definitely going! There's no way I'm missing this. I'm going." Then he said, "So do you still want to go to Magic Mountain or something?" I was rather stunned and confused; I don't know why. Maybe because of what was happening earlier. I replied with an unsure "Yeah, I guess so." H asked if I wanted to go before or after his trip to AZ next week. I said it would probably be best to plan for after. Then he began talking about taking the kids, too, so we could take them to Disneyland. I told him that it would be a good idea to plan this for at least a month from now so I could see if my parents would be able to watch the baby. This way we could enjoy all the rides and attractions together. Plus, he might get fussy seeing that it'll be a long day being out there. H agreed. He said he would check out his schedule to see when would be the best time for us to go.
So he got in just after midnight. He was in a pretty decent mood, and I just went with the flow. I didn't know if he wanted to continue our earlier R talk like he said, but I didn't say anything about it either. I was fairly quiet, H asked what was wrong, and I just told him I was tired.
H started watching the program I recorded for him. We joked and laughed about some of the things going on during the program. H rubbed my leg, arm, and foot quite a few times.
I was dozing off here and there, but I remember H laying his head in my lap and kind of hugging my legs.
He woke me up after the show was over so we could go to bed. I went right back to sleep, and I think he rubbed my back. Not sure.
This morning, H said he would take the kids to school (he's still in a decent mood) and be back in time to pick up S5 from kindergarten. H had to go do a service call after dropping them off.
I'm still feeling a bit on edge and confused as to what I really want to do.
Obviously, H is doing and saying stuff he feels is right (???), but it's like he only does these things when it seems I'm getting too close to the door.
I've got so much to think about. One thing I know for sure is not to expect anything from him anymore.
Thanks for listening.
JV
"I can't change the direction of the wind, but I can adjust my sails to always reach my destination."
Valerie
"I can't change the direction of the wind, but I can adjust my sails to always reach my destination." ~ author unknown
