Thanks guys, I knew I could count on you. I wonder if the whole upset has been blown up to those proportions because I've been having a lot of doubts lately...life goes on and sometimes ( or most of the time) we slip back to the old habits and routines because our minds and bodies are so used to them....we both started to do it and I got freaked out and over reacted. Anyway, I had another blow up this weekend (oh , we ended up talking on Tuesday night about the problems and it was okay) and even though at that time I was furious with things (back to old habits it seemed) now with the clear had I can say that my H realy does love me and realy does want to do things in a way that would show his love for me. I just have to re-instate the 24 hr rule (minature version of maybe 24 minutes?) and don't react to something until I think it through.