Just having one of those bad days. Some of that is nothing but magnified by more serious things it blows up to the size of Mt. Everest.
Today is my day off and I was planning on relaxing and taking care of my needs. The day was suppose to start with work out (I got a free membership to one of the clubs and have been enjoying the group classess they have - noticed that if I don't do the group class then I have hard time motivating myself) but I couldn't find my cell phone to call my friend to see if she is joyning me. Turns out it was dead and then I couldn't find my charger. Turns out my H took it to charge his phone. Now thing is that he has his own charger that he keeps at work. If he chose to do that then I expect him to let me know when he is borrowing mine - not a big deal on a normal day but I was already running late and to be honest I woke up in a bad mood.
Next thing that happened was little more traumatic. I parked in the gym parking lot and was cleaning out different compartments of the car console to clean up the mess from the weekend (tissues, napkins etc). Suddenly I saw a Target receipt and I thought it was one of the recent ones (we stopped at Target on the weekend). Turns out it was from December of last year (the date on it was such that I knew I was away on a cruise with my parents and my H was making plans to see OW). It listed among other things CONDOMS..... I already talked to him about whether or not he slept with her and twice he denied. That was just too weird for me to find this receipt from the past that could possibly confirm my worst fears: he slept with her and he lied to me about it....
Anyway, called him, confronted him, he still denied but acknowledge how I must have felt when finding it (I still have no clue how it ended up there-it was in the cup holder -place where it was not there before the weekend).
Another thing is that our 4th wedding anniversary is coming up and I already gave him his gift - I took him shopping buying about $160 worth of clothes. Over the weekend I saw that the Cirque Du Soleil is coming to our area and I mentioned that I wanted to see it. He decided that that's going to be my anniversary gift...nice and dandy but I was hoping for something JUST FOR ME! I am not planning on wearing his clothes, he is going to see the show with me though...I know it's dumb but it just kept pilling on with that bad taste in my mouth especially that I gave him a clue as to what I really wanted (Just for me) that would be in about the same price range that I spent on him....he did not take that bait though.
Last thing is that when we reconciled we talked about the fact that it should be both of us taking care of the house- I resent feeling like a maid who cleans, cooks and works full time too. Yes, my schedule allows me to be home more often but that's not the reason to put EVERYTHING when it comes to running the household on me. He had a 3 day weekend and the house is a mess (I worked on Memorial Day). I just get furious when I realize that those were just words and he happily slipped back into expecting me to do everything. I"m pissed, frustrated and I told him about it. I'm a grown up though so I will clean today (I was considering leaving it all for him to come back and see what he left me with but I decided that it's just childish). I do however, start feeling resentment towards him that it's back to what I did not want where as I'm keeping up what he always wanted (great sex life and lots of affection).
So....I know it must sound like nothing compared to other problems people on this forum are dealing with (been there though so I know what's that like) but that's my life now...I don't want to get it to how it was before....
