The saga continues..never going to the dark side

[Just_Me]

But you have to ask yourself, if this is what you want to continue and why? And what are the alternatives and why you may or may not seek another path?

Answers: That's not easy.
Do I want to continue to have a comfortable friendship? Yes, now and after remarriage to her. If we had this the whole marriage we wouldn't have ever divorced.

Is this all I want? No
If this is all I can ever have will it be enough? NO, I need this plus trust, intimacy, love, the whole nine yards

Why continue? It is building on the friendship. We've moved from being together but uncomfortable to being together comfortably (unless I initiate too much physical stuff). It is pleasant being around her. It is also I'm hoping a means to an eventual new complete R with her.

Alternatives? Cut her off completely from my life hoping that she'll want me back? Find someone else that can not only provide friendship/companionship but also the other aspects of a healthy intimate R? Something with less interaction than now?

Why seek another path? Shake things up. Try something different and monitor for positive results. Help me move more towards an attitude where she needs to chase me.

So I didn't answer the question exactly. I don't exactly know what I'll do. Continue to work on GAL. Be happy in my own skin. Accept whatever happens.