Wes, I just love reading your posts. Indefatiguable - that definitely describes you.
you commented on calling her your W yet. I've been trying to keep that in the forefront of my mind. I have so many friends and relatives that want to just blast away at my 'H' and it sometimes gets tiring defending him, but I need to keep doing that now. I still see him calling me 'w' every now and then too.
I am making a commitment for myself today, that I will just focus on the positives steps and to quit psychoanalyzing the negative ones.
I think it was a nice thought that you made w/your w about the 'big tub'. Even though she pushed you away a bit, you might have brought some pleasant memories up for her to think about.
So, to pursue by not pursuing? I am evolving into your line of thinking that if I go completely dark and drop my pursuit of 'h', he will think that I am not wanting any future R w/him. My feeling is don't let her push you away right now. She is testing you and seeing if you can still be there when she does push. It looks like there has been some good interactions between both of you, keep focusing on this.
So, if she initiates hugs, hug her back and enjoy the moment. I am probably saying the wrong things and going against the 180 principle but we won't know what is out there if we don't continue to follow the pursuit. Continue doing the things that work.
On your last comment "even if she won't let me love her." Who says you can't love her? No one can make you stop loving someone, even her.
Ok, I need to quit telling you what to do and make some more changes in my life! Take this whole post as just MHO.
