UD, I liked the word so I'm keeping it to describe myself. I'm glad you are doing so well sage. Thanks for keeping us informed.
Okay...now to tonight. My W (I decided to still call her this). She called after her test to tell me about it. I'm glad she did. She sounded like she was pleased with her performance. I picked up her kids and we set up the tent. It is incredibly windy so this should be a really long night.
Anyway, she came by and we had a pleasant dinner here and nice discussion. I just don't know what the hell to do. I feel like she wants me to pursue but not pursue. On one hand she initiates hugs (she hugged me as soon as she got here....at which point I told her I was proud of her) and at other times seems like she's getting close to me just for that purpose. But before she left she said she was going to take a bath and I said "in the big tub." meaning mine to which she pretend laughed like it will never happen and then replied..."let's be friends" and then hugged me (I interpreted it to mean...quit trying to go past friendship). I was just joking, but I see I need to completely withdraw physically. I really need to keep her away from hugging and stuff too I think. This isn't fair that she initiates and I don't.
But anyway...she's really sweet even if she won't let me love her. Hmmmmm
What do I do?
In the end, it's not the years in your life that count. It's the life in your years. Abraham Lincoln
It is hard to fail, but it is worse never to have tried to succeed. Theodore Roosevelt
