Thanks for the hugs. I needed them today. I went where I shouldn't have and paid the price.
Gabe, I know...believe half of what they do and none of what they say. I brought those things out. I feel as though I've set myself back a ways with her.
Quote: Paint yourself as not needing her, Wes, but enjoying her company as well. It'll remove this big area of hesitation in her. A big part of this will involve not asking her for reassurances, which is what R convos are about at the heart, IMHO.
I'm not giving up, but this is essentially what I was trying to express. I was doing a wonderful job of painting not needing her, but blew it today. What I actually need to do is get to the point where I absolutely do not need her. Well, I know I don't "need" her but it is killing me that we could be so perfect together.
T, it didn't end as bad as all that. There was no fight and she didn't say get away. She didn't even come right out and say there is no way we are ever getting back together. Although she might as well have. She just said she was worried that I would get hurt and that she didn't want me hoping. She also encouraged me to start over with someone else. I set myself up for this and today I'll just take my lumps. I'll brush myself off tomorrow and get back to business. Time to work on that life.
Take care all. Thank you for your words. Today is a day when I really need support. I haven't been this weak in months. I don't know exactly what it is.....probably squashed hope.
In the end, it's not the years in your life that count. It's the life in your years. Abraham Lincoln
It is hard to fail, but it is worse never to have tried to succeed. Theodore Roosevelt
