Last night, I told my W that I was going out with some friends (working on GAL). I didn't return until 9:00 am next morning. I ended up staying the night at my parents house after the night out. I hate to say it, but it actually felt good getting away from the W for a bit.

At this point, a little routine of sorts has formed. During the weekdays, I have to be in bed early for work the next day, so she usually times her talks with the OM around 2-3:00 am, when I'm already dead asleep. The trouble is, is that both of us are entirely on different schedules.

She has adjusted her schedule so that she can be up late at night to talk to this OM, so during the majority of the day, she is asleep in bed. Currently, she is unemployed, and really has no friends here, so she is clinging on to that guy for all her social fulfillment. At times, it feels as if there is nothing I can do to break her free from that world on the computer.

Do you want to know what her day consists of? The minute she wakes up, she is on the computer ALL THE TIME!!! The only time she is off of the computer is when we have dinner together, or when she is on the cell phone talking to OM. That's why I feel so taken for granted. I think the only reason she is still here is because it is convenient for her. If I asked her to leave, it would mean that she would have to move in back with her parents, and she definitely does not want that (no computer access there).

It really hurts to feel this way when it seems like you are the only one trying to save the sinking ship. I am still trying to stay positive, but I am beginning to think that both of us living separately for a while would be the healthiest option for me. Anyone have any opinions on this? Please let me know...

God, grant me the Serenity to accept the things I cannot change, Courage to change the things I can, And Wisdom, to know the difference...