Yes, I feel really resentful at H for just expecting me to change my plans so suddenly just because he wants to go on holiday, esp. when he's already been on holiday 2 weeks ago and he's going again at the end of the month, for another week with DD4.
It feels like his life is just one huge holiday. He has no job, no responsibility, a live in nanny and cleaner for the kids and he just goes on all these holidays and sees all these friends which is why he won't let me have the kids half-time, because I interupt his socials with his friends.
I am doing my best having a life without him and them, making things good for DD4 and me, working all the hours God sends on my books and my organisation. I do a help line so I'm having to answer calls from distressed people also, and listen to their problems and I'm doing all this so that DD4 and I have some kind of life - while he just party's!
I'm worrying about money and stuff and all I want is to be allowed to live my own life. It's hard enough being divorced, but when he just expects me to drop everything so he can party somemore, it makes me feel as if he just has no respect for me.
I tell him MONTHS in advance if I have any plans to make sure it's okay with him. This is just so disrespectful. He doesn't feel any consequences to this divorce because he just expects me to drop everything for him - it's not exactly divorced reality, it's as if I am still his wife so it's alright for him to just take them and bugger off when he feels like it.
Arrghh - I went to sleep for 2 hours this evening because I'm so exhausted by this sitch. I feel really ill.
I wish if he's left me for good that he would just let me get on with my life. Instead, he's emailing me and texting me and making pointless contact for no reason and I'm just furious.
If this is actually going to lead anywhere, fair enough, but otherwise, I just want my life back and I feel like I never can with him messing it up
