Yes there is excruciating pain, especially in times past, but there's more than that.
There is love in my heart that he put there, that still fills me with joy every day, even though he's not here very often. I sometimes feel terrible isolation, I am lonely, but I have this inner joy that he gave me, that my children gave me, that no one and nothing, not even a divorce can take from me.
He introduced me to more pain than I've ever felt in my life, but he opened my heart and made me feel LOVE - and I never loved anyone until I met him.
He taught me how to love and that's why I could write it.
I cried buckets through some of the chapters, laughed my head off in others. It was quite theraputic to write it all down.
